Blur

Everything around me is a blur
I feel out of touch with everything around me
The world is hazy
Life is obscure

Nothing is in focus
I cannot sense my core self
Clarity seems unattainable
Death has been chosen

Answers elude me
I no longer know what to say
Meditation brings chaos
Ecstasy is extinct

Questions remain unanswered
I do not expect that to change
Chaos rules my thoughts
Pain is eternal.