#154

I am only looking for Love.
The Love that used to exist.
I am only looking for that connection that used to be shared.
But now that connection is only one way.
When I look into her eyes, I feel the connection in my soul.
I feel.

I thought I knew who I was, but I was only playing the part.
I was what others needed me to be.
Not who I should be.
I was what she wanted me to be. Nothing else.
Without her, I am me.
I am me.

Once I had dreams, now only nightmares.
Once I felt love, now only pain.
Once happiness was within me, now I cry myself to sleep.
Once I felt needed, now I'm a crutch.
Once I wanted to live forever, now I want it to stop.
I want it stopped.

I'm no longer looking for Love, just understanding.
I don't expect life to return where it was.
I don't want it like it was.
Because now I am me.
I only need to know where I stand.
I need to know now.

No one can save me, I don't need saving.
I don't need your pity, I don't want your pity.
I write this because this is me.
No one can stop me, No one can help me.
This is who I am.
I'm who I want to be.

I stand in hell because I choose it.
I show a happy face to all because they need it.
I am Legion, for I am many.
I am alone, for I am only one.
I understand my needs, I understand my desires.
They no longer control me.